clouds, drop down a little lower and obsure my view

end of summer

Sun, 10 Aug 2008 23:33:16 GMT

i'm headed back to school in 9 days. well, not to school, but back to boston b/c i can't move in until the 29th. i didn't want to go back this early, but i ended up buying my ticket for the 19th so i could have a do nothing, week long, vacation before classes start up. i hope it's fun! i'm going to miss home and i feel like i haven't spent enough time with my parents. like i'm abandoning them :(. i never like leaving them for so long, but when i'm up at school, i somehow forget that i'm away from them. it's kinda odd. i remember when i left home for freshman year, i cried like a baby.

i didn't really get much accomplished this summer (except for finally making it to france). can i get things done in the next week?? lol, unlikely, but i'll see what i can do.

senior year and life are creeping up so quickly!

so french, so french, so french

Fri, 25 Jul 2008 02:02:14 GMT

well, here we are. it's mid-summer before my senior year of college. it's incredible that i'm already here. let's just talk a little bit about my summer though and not get into school things yet. my first 6 weeks consisted of studying (taking summer classes) in the french alps. tufts has a european campus in talloires, france and i've been wanting to go for the past 2 years. finally i saw an opportunity, and i did it! it was a great experience and i'm glad that i got the chance to do it. i met a lot of people that i wouldn't have otherwise met, and i got to see a little bit of europe. and, i'm in love with france. i always liked the idea of europe and paris and romance, but those 6 weeks only accentuated the feeling. i didn't do much traveling, but i was able to see paris, some of geneva, and the french alps, of course. i got to live with a lovely french woman and learned a lot about the culture there from her. she had the most adorable grandchildren (probably because they were so cute speaking french)! basically, i LOVED it there.

this is just a gorgeous view of the (2nd?) cleanest lake in all of europe, which was in the town where i lived. this is from the beach near school.

i took so many photos of this popular landmark

just very french

start up again

Sun, 13 Jan 2008 06:55:38 GMT

so, i turned 21 about 5 days ago and i'm using it as a reason to become more independent and more assertive. if i am to be considered an adult now, then i guess it only makes sense to act like one. there's no point in taking my time, being cautious, and seeing where i end up. that'll do me little good. i just have to take charge.

i didn't do much on wednesday (the bday) mainly because i didn't get a lot of sleep the night before and i was extra lazy. i stayed in bed, which i enjoyed because i love my bed - it's like a huge puffy square, so soft and comfortable. i skyped avec ma soeur and ate dinner with my parents. and then lauren took me out on friday to go to a bar&lounge in chinatown. it turns out that there was something special going on that night and 2 of the 3 floors were reserved for people of "the lifestyle", that is to say, the gay and lesbian crowd. we were still excited to go in b/c it would probably be fun, but there were seriously only 10 people in the entire building. :( very sad. so we left and had dinner at a random chinese restaurant!

tonight, i went to jaleo, a tapas restaurant downtown with a few people and i got a free bailey's, which was quite delicious because it didn't taste like alcohol. the food was great and it was nice to get out of the house again.

unfortunately, my winter break is over in a day and i have to go back to school. but that's fine b/c i get to see curt again and just spend time in my apartment getting this together before classes start on the 16th. this semester won't be nearly as hectic as last semester was. during the fall i had an internship working at the children's school on campus in the kindergarten classroom and it was so much fun. i learned so much and got to spend time with the cutest, smartest 4 and 5-year-olds around. this semester i'll only be volunteering there once a week and i think i'll miss those little kiddies a lot. i'll also be doing research in one of the psychology labs for one of the grad students. i spent time doing research last semester too and i got a lot of exposure to how research actually works in real time, which gave me a little insight into what i might want to do in the next few years. speaking of the future, i'm considering taking a couple years after graduation to work and make some money and gaining more experience before going on to grad school. i just feel like i won't be prepared enough to hop right into learning more without facing real situations in the field (psychology&child development). maybe i'll figure out what i really want to do with my degrees. it's so hard to make up my mind and make the right decision. i think i'm not thinking logically enough in that i won't find my dream job right away. i need to move around different positions and get my feet wet.

i always end up making life decisions during winter break. last winter i decided not to be pre-med and double major in cd and psych, and now i'm deciding that i should work a little after graduation. what'll i decide next winter? le sighhh..life sure does creep up on you.

this is my birthday dinner. my parents took my to grace's on the sunday before my bday and we had such yummy food! pad thai and sushi for me and a virgin margarita because i wasn't exactly 21 yet. :]

oh boy

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 19:53:31 GMT

so, once again, it's been a while. i just wanted to update and mention that i had the most excellent weekend (friday&saturday) because i got to hang out in dc with curt, ama, and paras. all in all, everything worked out so nicely and i hope we get to do it again sometime down the road. maybe i'll even get to go to ny/nj next time!

11 06 05

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 02:33:52 GMT

so, let me just say that this past weekend was quite enjoyable :).

piggy piggy!

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 02:41:20 GMT

what a good day

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 02:41:51 GMT

so last night was the ultimate college night. we camped out. we went hardcore, sleeping on the soccer field with nothing but blankets and many many layers of clothing. it was so cold and so awesome. we lasted until morning and had to head back to our dorms around 7:20 because it was practically 32degrees out there. and, 5 hours after we got ourselves back inside, it started to snow! how perfect is that? you know what's next. IT WAS MAGICAL! :]

brown and blue

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 03:46:35 GMT

the word that sums up my september 2005 is "unexpected". i've officially completed one full month of college life and let me tell you, it's absurd! i'm not sure if it's what i imagined it to be or if it's better or worse. it just is. college. the transition from high school to college was definitely better than the transition from middle school to high school. while i do miss my high school friends, i know i'll see them in a few months and i still talk to them often, so no biggie. i've met a bunch of nice people here, a few stand out more than others though. the workload isn't too bad, but that's because i didn't choose any horribly tasking classes. my most confusing class is elementary french, it has taken over my life! it's kinda nice though. it's a pretty language :). i can't wait until i can actually speak it without stopping for 5 seconds in between words. one day!

i must say that the most thrilling and unexpected thing that has happened to me is playing the trombone again!! i thought spring concert was the last time i would ever play one. it was so anticlimactic though because the director of TSO (tufts symphony orchestra) just gave me a trombone and told me to play with the others. i didn't get to warm up or anything. i was pretty lame, but it's all good, i hadn't played in 5 months! make me music. TSO had an announcment up that they needed more trombone players so i answered and that's how it all started. now i get to go to rehearsals and perform in the concerts and maybe even go to costa rica! i always loved band. now i know it loves me back. hehe. :D

another unexpected thing.. is a guy. no details. :)

the weather is also unexpected. well, i did expect massachusetts be colder than maryland, i just didn't expect it to be so cold so early! it's alright because i get to wear my bangin sweaters, yayyy.

however, i did expect missing my family, and i do. EXTREMELY! everytime i get off the phone with them i get a tiny bit of the blues. le sigh. i get to see them in a couple weeks though on parent's weekend. i can't wait!!

"old times of how i was a slacker and how you were willing to help me not be one"

Wed, 17 Aug 2005 09:39:56 GMT

a full month without an update. i'd like to say that so much has happened this past month, but honestly nothing has. though, i really cannot believe that summer has gone by so quickly. of course, i say that at the end of every summer but this year it just seemed to jump out at me. it didn't sneak up, because of it sneaked i would have had some kind of idea that it was coming. you know, i would have heard a creak or rustle. but, oh no, it jumped. i checked my calendar this week and ohmigoodness it's almost school time. i mean, i've been noticing all the back-to-school sales and things of that nature but it never really hit me until this week. it seemed like they were just starting early. nope. but oh wells, gotta suck it up and get on to it! this year is not going to be at all like the past four. it's going to be brand new and pretty amazing in all ways possible. i'm getting those nervous jolts every once in a while, but no full on butterflies in the stomach yet. next week is the everyone-is-moving-away week. almost everyone at least. mostly everyone. and then after that, it will really sink in. but until then, i'm just going to enjoy the rest of summer. yay for cooling out!

besides that, i was super excited when i got a text message from an old classmmate of mine. i ran into him on an SAT testing day and i gave him my cell number and 2 weeks ago he finally got to me. i love people from my middle school. those are years i long to relive. so easy and fun. i don't think i appreciated it all back then. and i used to dream about being 18 and going to college and being mature and sophisticated. that time is now but i still sometimes feel like i just left the 8th grade. so, i want to stay in contact with him because he brings back memories. so many, many memories. and remembering goodtimes just lifts me up! even when i hear songs that i used to listen to back then, i get so nostalgic and i start to recall so many people and conversations and moments. good, old-fashioned nostalgia! always so nice to me.

even now when i thumb through my senior year book and see pictures of certain days it all just comes back and it kinda saddens me that that part of my life is over. i'll miss the simple things like lunches in the courtyard, and walking down the hallway, sitting in the cafeteria (cafetorium) after school, and tennis practice.

oops, i didn't want to make this an ohnonewchapterofmylifeidontwannaforgetoldtimespost. seems to have drifted towards that though!

i'm sad i'm out of cappucinno mix. :(

hp &the hbp

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 21:50:56 GMT

alright, on the eve of the release of harry potter and the half-blood prince, i went to barnes and noble. within 10 minutes of the clock striking midnight, i had the book in my hand. it was a glorious feeling! i also got a pair of hp glasses, a wrist band with "july 16, 2005" on it, and a poster with bookjacket art from all 6 books on it. now, i told myself i would take my time and savor every page. well.. i savored every page but i definitely couldn't take my time after a while! it was so hard to just put it down for hours at a time. though, this book was worth the wait. it was amazing, i need to re-read it. i'm afraid of what will come in the next book. in fact, i'm afraid of the 7th installment coming at all because that will be the end of anything new coming from this magnificent series! and then i will suffer from post-potter-depression.

half-blood prince is so different than the other books. of course the obvious things of it being darker, the characters being more mature, the unexpected occuring. i won't say anything spoiler-ish. but once you read it, if you haven't already, you'll know what i mean.

i never want to leave the magical world of harry potter.

it's all so true! wooo eshs 2005!

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 04:54:46 GMT

You might have been a Catholic School girl if...

1.You mastered the art of cramming.
2. One word: Mandatory Fun & Bonding.
3. At one time, you liked your uniform.
4. You got kicks outta being able to wear you PJs to school.
5. You had a way of making yourself look so innocent when everyone knows that you really aren't.
6. You loved blasting your music in the parking lot to piss off one of the sisters or teachers.
7. Everyone hugged each other to greet people.
8. At dances, you formed an all-girls circle where no guys could take over.
9. You would sometimes wear a ribbon in your hair.
10. You violated as many dress codes as possible and when you get caught, you pretended that you "didn't know."
11. You have countless obsessions with guys you have never even met or never talked to.
12. You and your friends would walk around town after school still in your uniforms.
13. You have NO problem joking around about being a lesbian.
14. You spent many a religion class listening to your teacher preach about the Church's take on premarital sex, abortion, and the death penalty.
15. Your friends would always ask about your brother, cousin, or other guy friends.
16. "Remember whens" and good times are your specialty.
17. At least one of your friends names are Sarah, Katie, Michelle, or Lauren.
18. Guys ask you if you still have your uniform and if you would wear it for them.
19. Your skirts stopped fitting, but were too cheap/lazy to buy new ones, so you just pinned them.
20. Shaving your legs was optional, even when wearing skirts. Actually, putting any effort into your appearance was optional.

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 04:25:41 GMT

another week of summer has passed and i'm absolutely enjoying every moment. even when i'm doing absolutely nothing but lounging on the couch.

i have this fun idea about emailing my friends pictures of my escapades in college, like every week. that'd be very amusing, right? and who know's what'll happen. it'll be CRAZY!

not much to do at the moment. i might go clean my room. :]

chillaxin the summer away

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 09:15:18 GMT

today, that is to say, yesterday, i went to the doctor to get my meningitis vaccine. so now i have an awesome bandaid on my arm. looks like i have a battle wound.. covered by a tan bandaid. :] niice!

basically, that's one step closer to being ready for college.

there's not much that's been happening to me that's worth talking about. just the usual. blahh.

i did kinda get hit on twice today though! very funny stories. i'll just tell the first one. so, i was walking away from my doctor's office to my dad's office which is like a building away and as i was walking, this guy slowly rolls up beside me in his car and asks me if i need i ride. to which i kindly respond "no,i'm okay, thanks." and he says "you sure? *winkgrin*". lol yeah, mister! i'm sure! and then i proceed to run into the building as he drives away. goodtimes, goodtimes.

it's all about just enjoying the summer.

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 06:33:35 GMT

college is getting too close for comfort. just 2 months ago i was pumped and ready to go! what happened, man. good thing is that i found 2 tufts lj communities. so, that might help get me situated a little more. nice deal. no need to dwell right now, i can do that next month! ;D

so basically, this day can be summed up in a few words: sprinkler, typo, snooze, azkaban, pepperoni.

awesome.

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 05:15:12 GMT

i went to new york this weekend and it was so much fun, i really like it up there. it's not as lovely as boston, but it's still very cool. i'm definitely up for going back there.

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Mon, 06 Jun 2005 04:13:18 GMT


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let's do the timewarp again

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 21:16:49 GMT

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interview

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 05:00:36 GMT

interviewed by saipho

1. When you were younger, what was your dream job? Is it still realistic to you now? well, when i was younger, i kept saying that i wanted to be a doctor. just a doctor, no specific kind. i really don't think it was my dream job though. i never really dreamed to be a doctor. it's just what i said i would be when people asked me. i guess it sounded nice at the time. i just answered questions with answers that sounded good!
2. Do you believe in the romance in the movies? Or do you just wish it was like that? of course i believe in the romance in the movies! what kind of hopeless romantic would i be if i didn't! it's that sappy kind of cheesy, wonderfully magical love that keeps me motivated at life. of course, not everyone will be able to experience the movie love, but i know it's very possible.
3. What's something that will make you happy no matter what? harry potter will always, always, forever make me happy. and also gilmore girls. and sleeping in my giant bed. it's the little things really, you know? i'm actually very easy to please, so theres lots more that can make me happy. those just happen to be at the top of the list.
4. If the world was ending in 24 hours, what would you do? (don't hesitate to go all out on this one) hm, if the world were to end, i would eat a great meal including stuff from wendy's and taco bell. gotta have that last junkfood high! and then of course, i couldn't stay inside the entire time. i'd have to take in as much as i can. just going to all the places that are important to me and going to see/spend time with the special people in my life. i'd probably go to church one last time, to make sure i'm set for whatever comes next after the world ends. then i'd have my dad sing me something. and that'd just leave me waiting. no regrets. nothing too outrageous, like jumping out of planes. that thrill will come when the earth implodes or explodes or however it happens! oh, and i'd have to get a bunch of red balloons. 99 of them, and release them all.
5. Do you feel you're capable of handling a huge decision, such as taking away someone in a comas feeding tube? Why/why not? no, because i have too much trouble dealing with conflicting ideas for making smaller decisions like what color to paint my bedroom walls. i couldn't choose whether or not someone should remain living incompletely or die. it's all the what ifs and understanding both sides that make it such a problem. if i firmly believed one or the other, it would probably be easy for me to make the decision. but i don't think i'm capable of that quite yet.

1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

"act like a fly"

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 14:21:57 GMT

yesterday, i graduated and it was amazing.

"pull out chairs and open doors"

Sun, 29 May 2005 00:10:30 GMT

prom was so much fun. it actually worked out very nicely and that's almost shocking! everyone looked so beautiful in their dresses and make up and hair styles. and lauren was chosen as prom queen, it was the perfect moment! she was so happy and we were thrilled for her! i'm so sleepy now though. i didn't get to sleep until about 5 am and then i somehow woke at 8am. but it's cool because now that prom is over, there's just one more thing left of highschool, and that's graduation!

i may post pictures later :]

i'm unbelievably bored

Sat, 21 May 2005 20:07:12 GMT

once again, i stole from lydii <3

() snuck out of the house...
(x) gotten lost in your city
(x) saw a shooting star....
() had a serious surgery...
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
(x) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
() been in a fist fight...
() been arrested
() done drugs.....
(x) had alcohol...
(X) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose. ouch
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator....
() made out in an elevator
() swore at your parents
() kicked a guy where it hurts.....
() been in love...
(x) been close to love...
(x) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
() broken a bone...
() been high
() skinny-dipped....
(x) skipped school...
() flashed someone.....
() saw a therapist....
() done the splits....
() played spin the bottle....
(X) gotten stitches....
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour....
( ) bitten some cat....
() been to niagara falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox--
() kissed a member of the same sex...x
() crashed into a friend's car
(x) ridden in a taxi
( ) been fired....
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back... happens to everyone
() stole something from your job...
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend... to make the feel better
() had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in New Orleans
( ) slept with a co-worker...
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) saw someone die
(x) driven over 400 miles in one day....
() been to Canada...
() been to Mexico -
(x) been on a plane... yeah
(x) seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show..
( ) thrown up in a bar....
(x) ate sushi...
( ) been snowboarding..
() been skiing...
(x) met someone in person from the internet ... twinsy!!!
(X) been moshing at a rock show...
( ) lost a child...
( ) gone to college-
( ) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
( ) tried killing yourself
() tried hurting yourself
(x) taken painkillers..... for headaches...
() had someone cheat on you
()love someone or miss someone right now...
(x) had a crush on someone you shouldn't---
( ) fucked up skool cause of a problem with weed.
( ) own an ipod
( ) own a mp3 player....
( ) fancy someone on your friends list..

woah, i haven't done enough.

what to do with all this extra time?

Thu, 19 May 2005 01:59:22 GMT

it's almost 10 on a wednesday night and i am completely at a loss of what to do. i'm thinking i should read, but i just don't feel like it. being out of school with no homework seems unnatural. last night, i found myself wishing i had to get up for school in the morning. i know it's probably because i'm in denial of everything. highschool can't really be over, can it? i guess it can. i gotta find a way to deal! maybe if i get a job. i'll start working on that. i'm so restless and when i'm restless i end up eating and i don't want to keep eating because i'm not exercising. it's funny because each night i tell myself that the first thing i'll do once i get up is go running around the neighborhood. but i haven't accomplished that yet. maybe tomorrow :D

blue ribbons and band pearls

Fri, 13 May 2005 02:25:27 GMT

today was the second to last day of school as well as the day of my last band concert ever. of course, it was amazing and awesome but it's over and i don't think i like it! i'm gonna miss ms. hood and her last minute stress. i'll never get to wear my band uniform again, and my pearls will be put away forever. how did this happen so fast? it's surreal. that's the only word i can think of at the moment to describe it all. surreal. everything tonight worked out so well and we played in an actual musically acoustic concert hall and i think it was perfect. the jazz ensemble was perfect. trombone blues was perfect. symphonic band was perfect. i'll always remember it to be perfect! sadly, i'll never play that trombone again.. i'll have to take my name off of the case. the last note that i played was high C.

i have a feeling that tomorrow will be awfully emotional.

my heart is beating in four/four.

Fri, 06 May 2005 00:00:25 GMT

you know, it's an awesome feeling knowing that there are no more exams left ever, for the rest of my highschool life. all of my AP exams are finished and i'm pretty sure i'm exempt from my finals! yayy! this week has just gone by so quickly and i'm glad for that. now there's only next week and then highschool is over and there are two more weeks until graduation after that. SWEET.

so, on monday i was using my cellphone in the stairway at school and ms. baker saw me and took it! she took my cell phone and so i haven't had it all week and it's crazy. i keep thinking that i hear my phone ringing and in actuality it's sitting somewhere in mrs. hernick's office. all alone. it's a crazy rule that we're not allowed to use cell phones in areas other than the designated areas. at least i don't get any demerits for it. :]

after the ap calculus exam, mrs. bogrash had brownies for us and it was so cute! and today mrs. emshwiller came in after the exam and gave us candy and said how nervous she was for us. she's the best ever.

sigh. it's all ending so fast.

i was gonna post about field day but then i saw this in lydii's journal!

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 12:01:39 GMT

Your brain: 80% interpersonal, 120% visual, 120% verbal, and 80% mathematical!

Congratulations on being 400% smart! Actually, on my test, everyone is. The above score breaks down what kind of thinking you most enjoy doing. A score above 100% means you use that kind of thinking more than average, and a score below 100% means you use it less. It says nothing about how good you are at any one, just how interested you are in each, relatively. A substantial difference in scores between two people means, conclusively, that they are different kinds of thinkers.

Matching Summary: Each of us has different tastes. Still, I offer the following advice, which I think is obvious:

Don't date someone if your interpersonal percentages differ by more than 80%.
Don't be friends with someone if your verbal percentages differ by more than 100%.
Don't have sex with someone if their math percentage is over 200%.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 77% on interpersonal

You scored higher than 87% on visual

You scored higher than 90% on verbal

You scored higher than 73% on mathematical

Link: The 4-Variable IQ Test written by chriscoyne on Ok Cupid

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